I had my friend's uncle talk to me about music and pursuing it tonight at the wedding dress rehearsal, and here you are talking about it and saying I need to dive right in, what am I waiting for!! I've also been watching and reading a lot of Wayne Dyer stuff and he says over and over "do not die with your music still inside of you".
I know that's figurative, but for me it truly is music....I will delve into my music. I will stay busy and do those things that are important to me. You are right. I agree with me having too much time on my hands to focus on all the rush of emotions that comes out the gate. I know that this rush is happening, I know it's part of the process and then I use it as an excuse to feel sorry for myself and in the end I usually relapse. Not usually....every time I end up in relapse.
I have to do things differently and get active in my smoke-free life and not wallow in all the shit that comes rushing in. I focus too much on those things that get me to relapse, and then guess what....I relapse.
MUSIC
NATURE
SPIRIT
SERVICE
EXERCISE
HEALTH
PRAYER
MEDITATION
IMAGINATION
POSITIVITY
LOVE
FAMILY
FRIENDS...........
This is where my focus shall be
Adam
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