Muhammad Ali's Birthday!
What I mean is I've been wanting to have a drink here and there, but that's been the big thing that leads me back to smoking. I'm not addicted to drinking but I do feel that alcohol causes problems and depression for me personally and I am now seeing my little brother deal with it too. I also feel the pull to drink is to numb emotions I don't want to be feeling...so that's not good, and would most likely lead me back to smoking.
Because of all this I quit it at the same time as cigs, not knowing whether I'd go back or not. It honestly feels like a trick that would lead to full blown alcohol and nicotine relapse. I can't do it. I have to keep moving forward. Milestones mess with my head sometimes.
Sorry to rant and I feel I'm always talking about myself but I try and balance it with helping others. Sleep well and talk to you all soon!
Adam
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