(RP) This reminds me to question everything and not live in fear of the unknown. Living in fear of the unknown kept me in relapse for 9 years and what has it done for me?.....not a damn thing but realize I want out, and to overcome all obstacles!
I thought I would lose everything
From annemarieVT on 6/20/2011 2:08:38 PM
When
I thought about quitting smoking, I thought of losing everything. I
thought I would lose my fun time ( cause I thought I was having fun) I
thought I would lose my comfortable morning routine. I thought I would
lose my friends and all those smoking buddies. I thought I would lose my
resolve not to eat everything in front of me. I thought I would lose my
wanting to enjoy life attitude that I thought I had. I thought I would
lose my patience with the people that I loved the most. I thought I
would lose my job cause being in sales and having no patience did not
mix.
But I didn't lose anything !!!!
I gained (not just weight) !!!!
I gained a new attitude about what is really fun. Taking a deep breath.
The new freedom from addiction.
I
gained a new morning routine that still included coffee. But an added
walk around my property with the dog. And Yoga (my dog wants to join in
this as well).
I gained a confidence in making new friends cause I have a new self worth.
most of my friends don't smoke.
I
have started on a new healthy path to eating better. I have enjoyed
this immensely. And yes I have gained weight. I am working on this with
exercise.
I have gained a new perspective of me and the world I live in.
I
have gained patience, ( I really thought this would be gone forever) I
have the patience to listen to my son and my daughter tell me all about
their lives. I sit there and I listen to them. I don't interrupt with my
addiction anymore. It is amazing to just sit there and hear them.
Friends and customers as well. I have more patience then I ever thought
would ever have.
I have gained time. Time for friends at dinner (without rushing them out the door so I could light up)
I have hopefully gained a healthier lifetime. This we never know.
So don't ever think you're gonna lose, cause when you quit, you have everything to gain.
Jean
d142
This is an account of my journey, detailing the moments of a life free from nicotine and alcohol. I've found it helpful to document the ideas and events along the way to always remember where I came from and where I am heading. This will help me stay in the present moment and free from active addiction. I also hope that this blog can be used to inspire and benefit those who are also seeking refuge from their addictions.
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