BREAK THE CYCLE
day 30. Will be celebrating a month down tomorrow. time flies, and I have been having fun. I’ve had some really tough moments to face but I’ve known the only way to conquer them is to not smoke and not drink. Sometimes I feel that void but I know my new path will fill it and that smoking only added to that lonely void feeling. One day at a time still. No more time to waste!
Another smoking dream last night. They are always so heart breaking but they help me remember how bad a relapse feels instead of actually relapsing. I was such a serial quitter that my mind has been so used to the repetition roller coaster ride, that it has been mimicking it in my sleep multiple times a week. It's expecting it to happen but not this time!!!
Thanks to everyone and all the support here at the Q. I know I always have a place to go, though I know there may be a time in the future I can't reach out via internet. That's where I know this quit is up to me, and no one else and that I'm doing it for myself!
Thanks for letting me blab about myself. I swear I'm not a selfish person lol, though this addiction can make you feel that way sometimes.
Adam
D30
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