So far, any time I've wanted to drink, I've wanted to smoke. I've wanted to do both and just get lit up and feel sorry for myself. Feel sorry for myself and say "WHY ME? WHY CAN'T I GET THINGS RIGHT? WHY CAN'T I BE HAPPY?"
It makes no sense to smoke and drink, to sabotage myself just so I can feel sorry for myself and feel like my life is miserable when that is a complete and utter junky lie! It's a huge lie that I've been repeating for over a decade!!!
I'm not drinking any time soon...I've fallen for that bullshit mindfuck backwards ass game too many times. I may be even done with it but I hope that I can get to where I can have a drink without smoking sometime in the future. If not, then that's the card I've been dealt. I will not fuck up my quit anymore!
Adam
This is an account of my journey, detailing the moments of a life free from nicotine and alcohol. I've found it helpful to document the ideas and events along the way to always remember where I came from and where I am heading. This will help me stay in the present moment and free from active addiction. I also hope that this blog can be used to inspire and benefit those who are also seeking refuge from their addictions.
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